Small Silly Things

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I hope you do at least one thing everyday that makes you feel happy. It sounds dumb, but it’s sincere all the same. Even the most silly things are important if it makes you happy, I hope you know that. Never ever, ever, ever feel ashamed at how you seek joy even if, to other people it seems like the most mundane of task. As for myself? I enjoy brewing my coffee in nothing but my undies in the morning. Curling my hair sitting cross legged on the floor in front of the mirror makes me happy. I like lying on the carpet in my room with all the windows wide open, and sometimes, I like to drink black coffee at midnight so I can stay up to watch foreign movies. Sitting on my sofa reading a new book is an incredible joy. There are so many small silly things around me that makes me smile. Don’t get me wrong, I too overindulge in melancholy, I do. Because sadness is a complicated one, layered like a mille-feuille and too easy to exaggerate. Perhaps, it was the intense, fun trip to Hong Kong last weekend that has evaporated all my gloom away and maybe, I grew an inch or two in emotional strength and found my way out. But I’m happy and even happier to be able to express that here. So here’s to me and here’s to you, I hope you do at least one thing everyday that makes you feel happy. You owe that to yourself. You owe it to life. Never ever forget that. Never ever forget all the silly things that make you smile. It is a crucial habit to your happiness.

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choices

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Like the tide, this year has undulated through highs with equally intense lows. But ultimately, I have managed to stay faithfully in love with the things that I have and do on a daily basis that forms my life, so to speak. I work a lot, but really, my job is a hysterically fun and creatively fulfilling one. It amazes me that life sometimes feels too good. If you think about it, there are just so many things, no? I think the most important thing is to choose the things that you really want. The choices that we make run like rivers through our lives, flooding the days we live right here, right now. What do you really want? Where do you truly want to live? What is your preference, the snow or the sunshine? What makes you dizzy happy? What makes you extremely excited? Money, how would you like to make it? All the hours and days you have for yourself, what will you do? Will you take up knitting or go travel or paint or read or learn a language? What kind of partner are you looking for? And friends, who do you want to surround yourself with? What traits do you want them to have? Wow, the things! We have so, so many choices to choose from in this great big world we live on. The sun rises and then goes down. Seasons change and months rolled from one to the next and between all this flecks of time sit choices in a crazy unlimited supply. Isn’t that exciting? Doesn’t it want to make you sit still and think about all the things you want for yourself? I sure hope so. In the exact same way you would choose between a white or black sneakers at a store. You need to sigh because the choice is always hard; and then panic momentarily before choosing whichever you prefer. And let me tell you, there will be many times you will be confused between all these whichevers and whatevers to enrich your life. Hold on, listen! Have you ever marveled at all the ways you can go? There, staring at your face right this minute is a series of options flowing and they won’t stop flowing until your heart stops beating. I mean, how lucky are we? So lucky. But ampleness has its detriments in which it requires decisions. I hope you make these all the time. I hope you sit in solitary and reflect and collect choices that channels you to right current. There are so many things and most importantly, you deserve so many things, so, so many things. I hope you remember that.